from Shera at nvisiblewmn:
No, don't say it again! You said that you were thinking that I was regretting splitting with Pink, and you felt bad because you thought you were at fault, etc. It came back to me later, and I wanted to be sure it was clear that's not the case. God, just listening to him shrieking on the phone yesterday reminded me how glad I am to be out of that. I can't remember when I stopped feeling like I loved him, but it was long before you came along. When he was in his better moods, I felt a sort of friendship for him. But I had given up on him as a romantic partner. Or maybe it's more accurate to say I had lost interest in ever trying to build that kind of relationship again.
Like I've said before, I thought I could live without that. I've thought before, and probably said it, that's why when you came along, I really was vulnerable and off my guard. I just didn't know it. But then, I'm convinced not just anyone was going to cause me to totally disrupt my kids' lives this way. I probably would have stuck it out until I became certified if you hadn't come along. I was really at the end of my rope, though. I still remember some of the things you said to me back then, one being to consider how much more damage I could sustain, or something to that effect.
I remember telling you I wasn't interested in "just any man." That's still true. I thought I would be alone, as you may remember. I thought I would just be a teacher and a mom. To be honest, I didn't think I even cared about sex any more. It seemed frustrating and distasteful, really. You changed all of those perceptions.
I guess I was trying to say that although I get really scared sometimes, I still am happy with the choices I've made. Getting out of that marriage was the right thing. Now that we have each other, I would never choose that relationship over you, etc. I hope to be with you. I want that marquise diamond ring, although I'm willing to compromise. How about a marquise solitaire? You get that traditional solitaire you wanted me to have, and I get what I want. Doesn't that sound perfect? Something LIKE this: http://www.seaofdiamonds.com/item.asp?prodnav=1&flush=1&invky=8162652&zmam=9874632&zmas=1&zmac=22&zmap=114-1173
Anyway, what was your question?
GOODNESS!
1 comments:
I can see how it would be awkward to have this posted publicly--must have to claim that this was altered so that George won't think she ever found sex not frustrating and distasteful. PT, you're gonna give the guy a complex what with making him think his girlfriend ever enjoyed it and all.
Guess he can save that money on his erection hardening drugs this month. The Viagra company won't stay in business because of those two.
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